It just got away from me. I was a size 7 and had a baby. Then I was a size 10 and had another one. Life got busy. The girls were growing and very busy with school, homework, ball practices, dance classes, choir practice, Girl Scouts, laundry, dinner, yard work, growing a business and list goes on and on. Next thing I see in the mirror is a woman, daughter, sister, wife, mother, aunt and Nana who is tipping the scale at over 200 pounds. Exhausted all the time. Wow!! Yeah over 200 pounds for a body that was designed to be about 150. That is 50 pounds I was lugging around. Imagine hauling around a 50-pound sack of taters on your back all day. No wonder my body was hurting and drained all the time. I was carrying around more than my body was designed to hold.
It was not just the weight I was carrying; it was that I did not like my body anymore. I did not love me. I did not like what I saw in the mirror and OMG do not take my picture either! I did not love myself anymore. I did not like what I saw looking back at me. I was a size 18 working towards a size 20 and quickly.
The month of September of 2021 I went to my doctor’s appointment, and I heard the words, “Wow your blood pressure is a little high. We probably need to talk about medication.” Those words hit me so hard. I cried. Medication. High blood pressure.
And in three months one of my daughters was getting married. OMG pictures. All five of our daughters will be home and all the grandchildren. I want pictures. Wait, no I don’t want to be in the pictures. I can’t be photographed like this.
Yes, this is the self-talk I was saying to myself. I cried. Why do I talk to myself like this. They love me no matter how I look. I am a woman, daughter, sister, wife, mother, aunt, and Nana. How can they love you if you don’t love yourself? It is time to make some changes.
I learned about eating healthier and how food works for and against the body. I drank, and still do, drink lots of water. I learned to eat better and portion sizes. The weight began to come off. By the time the wedding came I was down 25 pounds. That was half my goal.
Today, I am about 150 – 155 pounds. I maintain a healthy lifestyle and enjoy being a woman, daughter, sister, wife, mother, and Nana. I am no longer exhausted and lugging around those extra 50 pounds. I have so much energy and I love me again!